titlian,khawb aur phool

hum koi dunyia say niralay tu nahin hain

hum bhi us waqat main jeetay thy jahan

tatlian,khawb aur phool

sheher hum ko bhi muqadar main mila hay jis main

dharkanain gum hain aur shor say hoo ka alam

hum bhi us gher kay makeen hain  k jahan

waqat katay bhuj jati hay is umer ki lo

ik bay mesruf o gumnam iraday ki tara

hum bhi logo ki tara hain k humain

dukh chupana bhi hay,hansana saray bazar bhi hay

hum pay bhi ehd_e_jawani ka azab utra hay

hum nay bhi door kisee sheher main hanstay hoay

ik shakas ko chaha hay bohat

un hawaon ko sada jana hay

jaisay us sheher say paygam_e_wafa lati hain

dharkanain ankh ka anso tu nahin hain lakin

hum nay gin gin kay gawae hain kisee shakas kay naam

hum niralay hee tu hain

hum nay is gum ko gum_e_jana sa bana rakha hay

umer jis main na koi aas,na anso,na hansi

hum nay is umer ka afsana bana rakha hay

Aay Zindagi tughay dhondo kahan?

It seems life has stopped somewhere.Nothing In and Out excites any more.Days turn into nights and nights are getting longer and longerMundane tasks are done to pass the day but not to live it.Life needs some meaning to enjoy it.But from where do I get it??

Nostalgia!!

If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be;and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger….Nelly, I m Heathcliff!He’s always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own being.

 

 (These famous lines are taken from Emily Bronte’s famous novel Wuthering Heights.It is the wild,passionate story of intense and almost demonic love betweenCatherine Eranshw and Heathcliff.Possession of love is quite visible..worth piece of reading)

                                                                                             

Hijab:To be or not to be..

The other day one of my colleague has started to cover her head as she was not used to earlier and she remained a hot topic around the campus why and how it’s happened? Anyhow people have passed a lot of comments and might be this bombardment within days she was back to her own, giving a headline that‘’I don’t want to look like a maid, while covering my head’’….and received applause from every corner, though one lady who practises headscarf tried to raise her voice to defend but who cares to listen minorities?

In our neighbours, Turkish women are living and I just wonder that when they come to open main gate or hanging some stuff in terrace, covered from head to toe, but they don’t look like maids…

During university days though we had hell of fights with Iranian girls but always got jealous of their beauty and admired their tag, hijab.

(No debate is required issue related to hijab in Turkey and what makes Iranian girls to wear hijab all time.)

But we don’t have any recognition or carrying any tag and falls here and there, quoting rather interperating religion in different perspective and adjusting it to suit our needs. We are living in a society where cultural and now global or co operative’s environment is affecting our nerves more than anything else. We are suffering identity crisis I think so, if not you but I am.

Days gone, when girls clad in veil or burqa were victamized  as all ill stories linked to them. Now veil has been transformed into another shape but it is being practised in few families still; however surrounding is glamorised day by day.

 Within Islam, the issue of veiling is a subject for considerable debate. Some Islamic experts say the text is open to interpretations, which has accounted for the diversity of veiling traditions across the Islamic world.(I don’t want to go any diverse discuusion,just my concern is that why cant I adopt it ?)

Everyone knows that what Quran says, compulsory to follow it but why I m writing instead to take it just got trapped into society’s norms, scared what people will say? How would I look? How much I can care of its dignity? Leaving most of my habits cos people expecting you just as saint, how cruel they are? How would I bear it in hot weather (it’s very true that one who wears hijab first question other ask from her, don’t you feel uncomfortable in such weather?)Would I encourage at workplace or push to the wall? Long list of fears

How weak I am, slave of so many things, giving hell of reasoning not to wear it, trying to justify myself. May Allah strengthen my faith and give me courage…Ameeen

Though I m suffering of….

Waiting hurts.

Forgetting hurts.

But not knowing which decision to take is the worst of suffering…

Though I m suffering of…

   ”Saray toor ho, saray hashar ho, humain intazar qabool hay

    woh kabhi milain,

    woh kaheen milain

    woh kabhi sahee,

    woh kaheen sahi” 

smile and the world smiles with you

Being a teacher in the branded school system of Lahore, we are observed by internal, external and international educational experts throughout year. They assess our teaching and students learning through lesson observations in the classroom. And along with these two main agenda points there are hell of other things which they notice as well.

I m no one to doubt at their specialities in different field of academics but yes there is huge difference between national and internal educationist’s conduction or attitude. Our own professionals enter in the classrooms like robots without any facial expression rather they have such a stunned and blank look that scared me even at times and what little souls feel. While on the other side international connoisseurs step in the classrooms with loud bang carrying big smile, get involved with kids, laugh and play ,become an active part of the classroom activities. Though the purpose of both is same but attitude just a kind smile categorizes them in two separate blocks.

Don’t know why we lead life with such vague look. People go offices looking serious and self important pass stern and unsmiling colleagues. Government officials dealing with the public seem to be the worst affected. If you get chance to travel through public transport you will notice that boom of this mobile mania people hardly listen you if you are needed to ask something because they are all time plugged with FM,so to smile is not their cup of coffee. In social gatherings the more you show ‘iron in neck’’ attitude the more you would be in demand, popular and get noticed.

We have locked ourselves into what we think important for no reason. All too often we underestimate a kind word, a sympathetic ear, an honest compliment and above all a SMILE…each of which can turn our life around. After all people come into our lives for a reason; whether we realise it at the time, whether we realise it later or whether we don’t realise it at all. There’s purpose in all fate does. So when we meet anyone, let’s give him or her good welcome and smile because you never know when someone is falling in love with your smile  

Act as I would feel

I have observed and experienced that people who hold a good balance between emotions and logics are successful in life. They can easily differentiate or figure out that how to deal the situation either by using mind or heart. Than there is another kind of people who leads life through logic, reasons and judgements. They have solid reason to act and have affirm logic to defend their reaction of any issue .And moving ahead in life and most of time reach at the top. At last there is category of nuts i.e. least use of mind, in general people call them foolish, sometime idiot or stupid too.

Unfortunately I m one of those nuts Many times I tried hard to act according to the signal given by mind but fail and get trapped or rather compel to listen heart. In some cases this approach work   and outcome is fruitful but most of time you are fail ‘cos things not done rationally and you just move due t o fast moving pulse rate. People take us for granted, get their purpose skilfully cashed out and throw u away. Day to day experiences develop a good judgement skill but folks I cant develop such ability and most of time encounter same consequence after being used as totally commercial based purpose.

Sometime I try to follow others footsteps rather imitate their conducts to show up myself but fall apart. There is good fun stuff safe in my memory, when I behaved which is not in me and things turned up in quite weird way

So one of my commandments is….. Act as I would feel…

Book Meme

I have been tagged by stinger to write something about a nearest book…

So when I looked at my side table to grab a closest book and found not a book but books…The Great Ashfaq Ahemd’s (late) Zawia(part 1 & 2),I didn’t  write lines from there cos most of readers are ‘’Agrazidaan’’…than there was  a fashion magazine for latest updates otherwise people label you desi,paindo,outdated, (though originally I m from pind) but here paindo means no dress sense,one who doesn’t know what is in vogue  and at page 123of it ,there was a top class mask to glow skin in winter…should I share  its ingredients and method????nahin bilkul nahin..’’never disclose your beauty secrets’’ Beauty Guru says and I strictly follow them …And last book was  a novel(Rose In Bloom by Louisa May Alcott) which I got issued from school’s library last Monday….so here are lines from it…And

The rules are:

1. Pick up the nearest book (of at least page 123)

2. Open the book at page 123

3. Find the fifth sentence.

4. Post the next three sentences.

5.Tag five people

  ‘’you could do that, but I never. Answer me this, Rose, and answer truly as you love me. If you had been taken into a house, a friendless, penniless, forlorn girl, and for years been heaped with benefits, trusted,taught,loved,and made,oh,so happy! Could you think it right to steal away something that these good people valued very much?’’

In dreams…

In dreams

I fly to meet you

amids clouds………

still lingering memories

of moments spent

together…

                              OR

    ”woh ik taira sath ghari bher ka

     kion satata hay adaat ban ker”

?????

when the drop of rain falls,one doesnt look up to confirm for clouds…….it is???